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Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
12:23 am
I have never been so proud of someone, to have voted for someone, of my country.







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Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
12:26 am - hmm
I was supposed to go out tonight, to volunteer at a yoga event, but got sick on the subway and came home. Of course water, ginger tea, advil, and not having to go into the woozy, drunken, packed city and do worklike things after having filed all day seems to have produced a miraculous recovery. I have tea, a cuddly cat, and Vol. 12 of Fullmetal Alchemist, so I think I've been worse.
My fandom resolutions this year are to feedback more, finish the House WIP, start the psycho Supernatural story and maybe write some Ed/Roy Mustang. Maybe. I have an outline? That's way further than I get most of the time. The supernatural story is a weird piece of work with a few vivid scenes that won't get out of my head, but it's ambitious, plotty and cranky and I don't actually want to write it at all. Whereas I can't really even find a lot of the kind of Roy/Ed I want to read, so I might actually finish it in case someone else is looking for the damned thing besides me.

RL resolutions: stay with karate, get a new job that doesn't make me want to kill many, many people and then mutilate myself in interesting ways so I can go sit in a nice institution for a nice long break, deal with anxiety better, and maybe find a new boy or girlfriend. Someone to play with at the very least. I also want to see more live theater. I think the best day I can think of this year was the day I went to the MCR concert in Jersey, all by myself, fuck not having friends to go with, fuck if I can afford it or not, fuck what anyone would think of me, this quiet woman in her office clothes sitting with a book until the interesting people came on. I think I need to get on doing that kind of thing more.

current mood: discontent

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Tuesday, November 13th, 2007
8:31 pm
It has been a damn long time since I updated this thing. I don't know why I am now- I'm as disengaged with media as I've been in years.
I'm back in karate- an all female dojo joined half in the hope I'd get a girlfriend out of it. I love it so much for itself that it's startling me, even as disconnected as it makes me feel.

Once upon a time, in a university outside of New York, a fat little student dreamed of writing for a living, at newspapers, at magazines, at a desk in the pretty apartment she'd have somewhere with both trees and honking horns outside.
It didn't work. She fell apart, started living to eat and being afraid to go outside or answer the phone. She lost all her friends, and gained a great therapist, a pretty cat and more experience with being an inherently unreliable person than she ever, ever wanted.
She's 26 now, neither fat nor thin, and has a job she hates but a pretty apartment with both trees and honking horns outside. There is medication on the dresser, books, paper and newspapers all over the place, and the cat is asleep on the cable box, snoozingly indifferent to it's CSI reruns.
She doesn't know how to talk to you, but she's usually watching.

current mood: drained

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Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
11:36 pm - Also
1. That mood icon thing is whacked. I need to change it.
2. If anyone who might have friended me has any information or opinions on international coverage on the war in Iraq, I'm doing a paper. Rant at me! I beg you!

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9:24 pm - Well......
I seem to have chosen a pretty bad time in my life to have started one of these things. I've been lurking around many other people's for a long while, and I finally said the hell with it, I need my own. Of course this may have had something to do with finals season, but you can only write history papers for so long without thinking calm, happy thoughts in the direction of suicide, so here it goes.

I'm a journalism student who is basically interested in most forms of media. I've been writing fanfic since the eighth grade and have a bunch of WIPs in five different fandoms. But I'm a perfectionist about words, and fiction is not my strength as a writer. So, I've never actually posted anything. This may change, as I've got a few things in progress I don't violently hate, but probably not until my damn diploma is sitting in my room. Which it will be in a shockingly short time. :-)
Anyway! Vital stats:

21, bisexual, New York native, blah, blah.
What I'm reading: Homicide by David Simon for the dozenth time, inspired by the news about the show fucking finally coming out on DVD, Longitudes and Attitudes by Thomas Friedman, and Neil Gaiman's Sandman series, which I only discovered a few months ago for no reason know to me. I'm going to buy The Kindly Ones with my next paycheck, if I make it till then.
Current problems: freaking the hell out about the prospect of trying to find a job in NYC, and if or not Possible Future Girlfriend!N. is a good idea or a fiery wreck in waiting.
Current joys in life: I'm *graduating*. I have a mostly cool mother and my best friend is sane, alive and getting married. I'm writing for fun, if blocked on my papers.
I can live with this.
Next Update! The Varied States of Fandom Obsession!
I'm sure you are on the edge of your seats. ;-)

current mood: blank

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Tuesday, April 29th, 2003
12:57 am - introduction
This is going to be an interesting experiment.

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